i miss you-

YSunday, August 31, 2008

been a long time since i've read guokai's blog.. it cheered me up damn loads.. not that he posted funny stuffs deliberately to cheer me up but.. well, his jokes worked.. i hereby declare that reading GK's blog is the best medicine anyone can get if one's depressed.. or maybe it's just me because i'm EA.. life continues to go on.. i may have to miss bio lecture, chem make-up lesson and choir prac on thu though for her funeral though.. see how first.. not sure of timing yet.. her body will only arrive tomorrow? i guess that's the worst teacher's day present her parents would ever get.. [her mum was ex-HOD of Science and now VP of DZPS whereas her dad is a retired Geog teacher in LHSS]

may be going down to their house again later after my youngest sis comes home from tuition.. hope 1st aunt's feeling at least a little better now compared to yesterday..

missing you- 3:13 pm

YSaturday, August 30, 2008

i hereby confirm that the random emo-ness that overwhelmed me was because of her..
i felt emo around the time she died.. which was around 1+, 2pm(+8GMT)..
she was trying to communiate with me i guess although i wasn't as close to her as i used to .. i wasn't the only one she tried to communicate but i was quite glad she chose me among the rest of my family members..
perhaps because i used to stick to her and played with her when i was a little girl.. :]
she also communicated with her sis and my 2nd aunt.. i shan't elaborate on them that much..
i thought i wouldn't cry but in the end, i still did..
i cried like a total of 5 times today..
i didn't even cry when my paternal grandfather died..
well, perhaps, he has always been a distant figure in my life..
whereas she played a part in my childhood memories..
Another reason could be that he was already old and suffered from lung cancer so his death wasn't a shock to me,
whereas she was a very obedient and sensible girl,
pretty and bright,
adventurous
and definitely young..
turning 25 this november..
i shall dedicate a poem to her..
though i cannot write one as well as my brother or nwk but i shall do what i'm best at: acrostic poem

Numinous
Intelligent
Cheerful
Outstanding
Lively
Energetic

missing you- 9:11 pm

YFriday, August 29, 2008

just heard a bad news from my dad.. i cannot believe it..
my favourite paternal cousin just died due to a car accident in America TT
was this the reason why i suddenly felt emo just now?
my poor cousin TT
she's so smart and pretty
smartest among her siblings, best looking among her siblings..
she excelled in both academics and in sports..
life's just too unfair
not that i wanna curse the rest of her siblings or anyone else but,
WHY HER? WHAT DID SHE DO TO DESERVE THIS?!
RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pissed.. life's just too fragile..
okay, this sounds, well, contradictory for a suicidal person like me.. :X

NICOLE JIE,
not sure if you can hear me up there, but i wanna tell you this:
YOU'LL FOREVER BE IN MY HEART
love ya loads ♥

missing you- 9:51 pm

i'm back after a 1 week hiatus!!! :D
got back most of my papers.. stunned by my eng results.. i actually flunked it!!!
YES, I FLUNKED MY ENGLISH. WOW.

chem 8 marks careless, and i lost my A.. luckily still got chem pract.. other classes get back le lor, left my class -.- hopefuly combine le got get A1..

maths hor, i'm pissed lar.. i lost 3 marks due to carelessness.. my equations are correct but when i calculated my answer using the calculator, i got a different answer.. zzz.. 3 marks down the drain.. lost my A again..

physics.. wells, i still failed but it was better than i'd expected.. 29.5/70 wakakas~ i stunned lor.. thot i'd get F9.. heng E8 nia.. but i die le.. only 1 A to pull me up..

getting SCS-Hist geog after holidays.. doubt i'd get A1 for SCS-Hist.. even so my SCS-Geog will pull me down.. C5 nia leh.. die liao lor.. sayonaro to gpa 3.0..

bio, well, i haven't gotten back my essay question, but currently, i doubt i can get A1
max b4 only lar.. i need to score 12/20 for essay to maintain my b4 leh D;

chinese also haven't get back yet.. hope i do better this time for 长文缩短.. i suck at it.. and i'm pissed.. i re-did a 作文 and i ended with only a 1-mark increase.. @_@

lastly, i think i'd flunk my french prelims :X think i totally died on thursday's paper.. i was hoping that it would help me pull up my gpa.. well, i think it's gone case le.. TT

today was teacher's day celebrations.. quite fun lar.. actually had to go take group choir photo as part of teacher's day present for ms tham and mr tay after dismissal, but in the end alot of people missing so we just left.. played badminton with jeanette, veron, zhengyang and merwyn for three hours :D the guys also played with some primary school kids.. the kids are imba lar.. totally thrashed the guys :X but hey! they're in their primary school badminton team luhs..

argh!!!! seriously think i'm getting anorexic.. it's like i'm hungry but i don't feel like eating.. don't know what is wrong with me.. and i sort of emo-ed for awhile today.. don't ask me why.. i just randomly felt emo.. lols.. perhaps the guys were emo-ing and they sort of influence me? i really don't know..

i'm dead beat.. hahas.. adieu :D

missing you- 9:30 pm

YSaturday, August 23, 2008

hihi :D i'm back after a long long hiatus! ^^;
common test week is finally over.. i'll totally flunk physics test luh D;

shan't talk about much about that.. after the last paper on wednesday, a group of 4B girls went to vivo for lunch of which 6 of us went to plaza sing after that to catch the movie, "MONEY NO ENOUGH 2" i cried luhs, especially towards the end.. so sad and touching.. but there was this part that i 半哭半笑 cuz it was a sad scene then the next was a funny one and the change between the scenes were quick.. hmm.. i realise that Jack Neo's movie productions are always very good! he's able to capture the essence and the topic he chooses to portray is very close to our hearts.. it's like you can easily 融入 into the movie like that.. [hmm, is it used this way? my chinese is getting lousier and lousier D；]seriously, i don't understand why it was critiqued so harshly.. only a 2-star rating.. then pia for french lessons after that..

thursday after school, went wif a group of 4B girls and nwk to eat at koba in jec.. he like so extra lor.. only guy =X then yanni keep saying he's turned on by guys.. haha xP then yting was super sick luhs.. shant't say.. hehe.. went home after that..

friday, i pia for french extra lesons because next week is prelims le.. wish me lotsa luck, yeah? :D

today. went for cip.. supposed to be for those who have not done any flag day this year.. i did 4/5 in the first semester luh.. missed one because got hsk (advanced) on the same day simultaneously so i withdrew at the last minute.. went for today's to accompany cas because she had never done any flag day this year.. went cck.. saw lotsa people i know.. but some people dao-ed me luhs.. pretend never see me D; others were kind enough and even stopped to chat with me :D then after returning the can, went to jec for lunch.. after that went back to cck to take 190 to far east plaza to celebrate peishi's birthday.. reached there, called veron.. said they were at wisma -.- got lost.. walked from far east all the way to tangs place and back.. and i just couldn't see wisma anywhere.. took the underpass and ended up at far east again.. you can call me a noob, whatever.. because the only place i'm familiar with is far east plaza.. -.- i've never been to orchard on my own.. i'd just get lost in orchard dif i'm alone.. after eating birthday cake, went back to far east again to walk walk.. went to skinfood to buy nail polish.. saw qiyuan, her mum and sis there.. such a coincidence ;D haha.. then went looking around for stuff.. bought a red belt to match with my blackdress.. haha.. another red stuff to my collection.. lols..

tatas for now!

missing you- 9:15 pm

YMonday, August 11, 2008

long time since i'd posted.. seems like i keep buying red clothes recently.. that's so unlike me, since red isn't exactly my favourite colour.. i've been wearing red shirts/blouses for days.. i'm not exactly patriotic but, wth is wrong with me??? went to bugis street on national day with COUSINS!x3 after celebrating grandpa's birthday.. bought a black shrug and a red kimono dress.. see what i mean? RED again.. RED ATTACK!!!! LOLS... ._. getting lamed out by myself.. i'm bored.. just went to 7-11 to buy a-cash.. and dammit! 10k cash ran out and i had to buy 20k cash.. my "hard-saved" $$$ T.T nvm.. can easily save it within 3 days? argh!!!!!!!!!!! i wan audiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. hate it when my couz come because it means having to ight with her to play audi.. and my bro's comp got audi but he totally refuses to budge from the computer.. keeps playing RO.. claims that he's bored with audi.. zzz.. i don't understand.. he doesn't even play audi as often as RO.. how can he get bored? tatas for now

missing you- 2:36 pm

YSaturday, August 09, 2008

packed my cupboards just now.. and i ended up finding alot of stuffs that do not belong to me on my shelves.. hais.. 害我白白被妈妈骂.. because she said that i so lazy don't want to pack my shelves, just dump everything there.. but hellos? like half of the thigs on my shelves weren't mine? zzz..

ok, more quizzes.. i just love school holidays.. they give me time to do as many quizzes as i want.. haha.. :P

You Are a Chocolate Flavored Popsicle

You are hedonistic. For you, summer is all about indulging your five senses.

Some people may call you spoiled, but your simply the type of person who knows what they want.

You have sophisticated tastes. You like sweet things as much as the next person, but you don't like cheap treats.

You're much more drawn to the dramatic in all aspects of life - including dramatic desserts.

What Flavor Popsicle Are You?

WHAT TYPE OF PERSONALITY DO YOU HAVE?
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

THE FIVE-QUESTION PERSONALITY TEST
Your ideal mate has a sense of humor and is lively.
You always compare yourself with others. You make your wishes too difficult to come true.
Success or failure, that's no big deal. You don't care. That's your attitudes towards success.
You love freedom and don't want to get tied down.
You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.

THE ANIMAL TEST
1. A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is elegant and well-mannered.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being creative, so you're not bored.
3. The impression you'd like to give to your lover is loyal and faithful.
4. One reason that would make you break up with your partner is insecurity.
5. The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner. A long-lasting relationship that you can grow with is important.
6. Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn't do anything wrong after marriage.
7. About marriage, you think marriage is a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure your partner very much.
8. About love, at this moment, you think of love as a commitment for both parties.

missing you- 10:57 am

YFriday, August 08, 2008

ok, more quizzes from me today.. wakakas~ shan't talk too much about today's events.. i'm starting to feel guilty about my indulgence =X

You Are 44% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.

You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends...

But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

How Open Are You?

this is right on target man.. so unless you are the lucky few whom i count as my closest friend, you won't know much about me.. even those lucky few don't know everything about me either.. =X hehe.. i'm just a low-profile person xP

Your EQ is 140

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.

You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.

But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

What Your Playing Cards Tell About Your Future

Right now you are focused on your internal emotions, including a bit of pain and suffering.

Your emotions are currently tied to a close friend or confidant. You have known this person for a long time.

Your closest friend always can cheer you up... whether it's through flattery, funny stories, or simply just being there.

The near future will bring you peace, interesting travel, a simpler way of life, and eventually a deep partnership.

Beware of some very bad news. This may mean the loss of someone close - or the loss of a close relationship.

The Playing Card Test

You Are a Hot Fudge Sundae

Classic, simple, and divine.

Why mess with perfection?

What Kind of Sundae Are You?

Your Fragrance Profile

The best calming fragrance: vanilla

The best fragrance for everyday wear: orange

The best fragrance to boost your sex appeal: lavender

The best fragrance for energy: pine

What's Your Fragrance Profile?

am i to buy so many scents? lols

Your True Sign Is Aquarius

Wacky

Rebellious

Cutting Edge

A Total Freak

Unconventional

Difficult to Predict

Breaking All The Rules

Independent and Inventive

What Sign Woman Are You, Really?

though my horoscope is Aquarius, i don't think i'm a total freak!!! that's an insult!!! and i don't break all rules though i feel like doing it.. grrrrrrrr

You are the Sense of Sight

You are a very observant, detail oriented person.

You are able to take in a lot of information at once.

You often see things that other people never notice.

You have a good eye for design and aesthetics.

You love to be surrounded by beauty - natural or not.

When you imagine how something should look, you see it clearly in your mind.

Which of the Five Senses Are You?

You Are an Ice Cream Cake

Surprising, unique, and high maintenance.

You're one of a kind, and you don't want anyone to forget it.

You're fun in small doses, but it's easy for people to overdose on you!

What Kind of Cake Are You?

You Are a Heart

Your life philosophy can be summed up as, "Love like you've never been hurt."

Your greatest wish is to have harmony in all of your relationships.

You can't help loving people, even when they're incredibly flawed.

You are a true romantic, and you are willing to give almost anyone a second chance.

What Hand Gesture Are You?

Your Ice Cream Personality:

You like to think of yourself as a fairly modest person. And it's true that you don't talk yourself up... but you're also pretty happy with who you are.

You have a wild reputation, but you're not as wild as you seem. You take risks, but only measured risks.

You are a somewhat open minded person, but deep down you're fairly conservative. You don't like trying new things very much. And if you do find something new you like, you stick with it.

You are a natural multitasker. You feel alive when you're doing more than one thing at a time.

You can be a big dramatic and over the top sometimes. You are bold in every way

The Ice Cream Personality Test

You Are a Great Listener

You are the perfect person to talk to.

You are patient, empathetic, and encouraging.

You provide subtle, but important, feedback.

You let people say everything that needs to be said before you weigh in.

Are You a Good Listener?

You Are a Sweet Person

When it comes to snacks, you're more likely to grab some candy than heat up a pizza.

There's a good chance you're female (women prefer sweet snacks)...

Or at least, you prefer to be in the company of women.

Your tastes are simple and predictable. You are young at heart.

You tend to crave food you can just grab and eat.

Are You Sweet or Salty?

You Should Play the Piano

You are a true music aficionado who loves many musical style and eras.

You find music to be an escape. And you'd like to be relaxed and comfortable when you're making it.

You're very innovative, and you have a unique way of knowing what may sound beautiful.

There's a strong possibility that you could compose some of your own work songs quite easily.

While you have a lot of creative energy, you are also serious and conscientious.

Your musical talent needs time, practice, and lots of privacy to flourish.

Your dominant personality characteristic: your painstaking attention to detail

Your secondary personality characteristic: your natural tendency to be whimsical

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?
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missing you- 5:43 pm

YThursday, August 07, 2008

more quizzes.. ok, only a fewbecause i gtg..

You Can Definitely Spot a Liar

Maybe you have good instincts. Or maybe you just have a lot of experience with liars.

Either way, it's pretty hard for someone to pull a fast one on you. You're like a human lie detector.

Can You Spot a Liar?

heehee.. i'm a human lie detector.. cool eh? hmms, LIARS BEWARE! wakakas~

Your Worry Factor is 54%

While you're not a worrywart, you worry more than you should.

Maybe you don't have enough to keep your mind occupied at times...

Or perhaps you've trapped yourself into some bad thinking patterns.

Try to worry less and enjoy life more. There's no point thinking about things you can't change!

Do You Worry Too Much?

What Your Taste in Music Says About You

Your musical tastes are upbeat and conventional.

You are an easy going, optimistic person.

Family and friends are very important to you.

You enjoy caring for and helping other people.

You thrive in a tranquil environment, and you do your best to keep things peaceful.

You enjoy your life. You have your priorities straight.

What Does Your Taste in Music Say About You?

missing you- 9:56 pm

Saw this on haiwei's and mindy's blog.. went to do it.. here are the results..
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you
can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

hmms, generally true.. but some are obviously not lor.. eg, confidence? i'm totally lacking in that aspect TT go find more quiz.. hehe.. i've been doing quizzes and i've not started on my 私函 which was given today and is supposed to hand in tomorrow.. ohwells.. procrastination has become a habit of mine these past years and it's become bad to worse ]：

missing you- 9:34 pm

I was bloghopping 6A'o4 peeps blog when i found this on wj's blog.. it's been a long time since i did such personality tests.. as well as visiting 6A'o4 peeps blogs =X went to do the test and ended up with the same personalty as his -.- shall attribute it to the fact that our birthdays are 1 day apart :] and so people who have similar birthdays share similar mindsets/thinking/personality??? ok , here goes..

Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters.

For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary. They tend to live according to the motto “the genius controls the chaos” - which is normally the case so that they often have a very successful academic career. They are less interested in details; they prefer to look at something as a whole. This means that they still have a good overview even when things start to become hectic. However, as a result, it can occasionally happen that Dreamy Idealists overlook something important. As they are very peace-loving, they tend not to openly show their dissatisfaction or annoyance but to bottle it up. Assertiveness is not one of their strong points; they hate conflicts and competition. Dreamy Idealists prefer to motivate others with their amicable and enthusiastic nature. Whoever has them as superior will never have to complain about not being given enough praise.

As at work, Dreamy Idealists are helpful and loyal friends and partners, persons of integrity. Obligations are absolutely sacred to them. The feelings of others are important to them and they love making other people happy. They are satisfied with just a small circle of friends; their need for social contact is not very marked as they also need a lot of time to themselves. Superfluous small talk is not their thing. If one wishes to be friends with them or have a relationship with them, one would have to share their world of thought and be willing to participate in profound discussions. If you manage that you will be rewarded with an exceptionally intensive, rich partnership. Due to their high demands on themselves and others, this personality type tends however to sometimes overload the relationship with romantic and idealistic ideas to such an extent that the partner feels overtaxed or inferior. Dreamy Idealists do not fall in love head over heels but when they do fall in love they want this to be a great, eternal love.

Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, theoretical, emotional, spontaneous, idealistic, dreamy, effusive, pleasant, reserved, friendly, passionate, loyal, perfectionist, helpful, creative, composed, curious, obstinate, with integrity, willing to make sacrifices, romantic, cautious, shy, peace-loving, vulnerable, sensitive, communicative, imaginative

These subjects could interest youl
iterature, philosophy, psychology, music, art (museums), writing, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, handicrafts, writing, voluntary work

missing you- 9:13 pm

YSunday, August 03, 2008

another quick post :D
lots of half-done homework.. TT seems to be a practice of mine these days..

o2o8o8
went to perform for dementia patients yesterday with my dearest RVCS!!! :DD
our actual performance was actually btr than our dry run!!! wakakas~ but tenors sing wrongly.. lols.. 牧民描绘 become 牧羊描绘... rofl!!! den listen music, sing pop songs, read storybook, chat chat awhile.. then sang 望春风.. after that slack slack awhile and helped to serve food to the elderly.. then went to j8 for lunch :D went mos burger.. tried out jhosy's recommendation: ebi rice burger.. not bad lar.. xD after that rushed home because my dad sms-ed to say that we are going far east.. so went home quickly after eating.. in the end, only my sis and i went there to shop.. both my sis and i thought it would be a family outing lar -.- nevermind.. I ♥ SHOPPING SPREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES, especially with my BELOVED SIS ♥ hehe.. xP [ele, dun bash me if you ever see this =X ] bought denim skinnys, a red tube and a pair of silver flats :DD then went subway for dinner with sis.. after that go ahmah house.. watch "fallen angel" then go home..

o3o8o8
woke up at 7.57am this morning.. read storybooks until about 11am.. go bathe then set off to Lot 1 with my family.. went to new york new york for lunch.. nice but super full!!! luckily, i didn't eat breakfast :D if not i go there waste money..wakakas~ den went on a SHOPPING SPREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE with my BELOVED SIS again xD spent $120 on cosmetics =X because we spent like $78 at first then the sales lady said that if we buy more stuff minimum $100 from the brand, we'll get a $20 voucher.. so off we went looking for more cosmetics with permission from dad.. i bought eyeshadow and lip gloss.. sis bought foundation, eyeliner and i-can't-remember-what.. lols.. then went cotton-on.. bought clothes again.. xP a purple dress, black top and spaghetti-strapped shirt [1 white 1 grey] to wear inside the black top.. hmms, shall have to clear out my wardrobe soon.. like my mum said, i've too many old clothings which i haven't worn for years.. maybe i shall donate them to the salvation army or something :]

ok.. better go pia hoework.. byebye

missing you- 9:28 pm